A LITTLE MORE BACKGROUND STORY

The visual artworks used in SHORT ART STORIES were created over several years. I had never really learned to communicate emotions, and was even very afraid of expressing or voice them, especially the negative ones. The piling up/swallowing down led to occasional emotional explosions. I also like to describe it as a balloon being blown up until it pops. Then, when I experienced mental violence and abuse myself, the above behavior led to me completely isolating myself for a while and being emotionally (almost) unavailable for a long time. It felt as if my body existed and functioned, but my soul was only watching from a distance. (At this point a loving "SORRY" to those I hurt during this time by my unavailability, or my emotional outbursts.)

In order not to implode through my very strong negative emotions, I used a form of expression that was familiar to me now: visual creation, the language of pictures. Especially on my canvases I could emotionally dissolve and process what I had no words for. This lead me to some unique revelations.